truthfully.

I've always known this about myself, but it's become more obvious to me since I graduated. Honestly, I hate getting close to people. I guess I never really saw the point. The way I see it, the closer you let someone, the more power they have over you. And unfortunately, sometimes people abuse that power. And why get close when you eventually say goodbye to everyone? There are those people that grow to mean so much and then all of the sudden you wake up and they're no longer a part of your life. See, closure is the most important thing in the world for me and if I just drift away from the people I am close to, then there is no closure. These are the things that make it hard for me to completely enjoy the relationships I have with people. 

I recently shared these thoughts with my best friend. 

He basically voiced what I guess I've always known. It's wrong to think like this. We grow close to people, we have our heart broken as we drift apart from people we thought we'd be friends with forever, and eventually we get over it. We replace the people we never thought it would be possible to replace. And that's just life. 

All this being said, I think it's only fair to say that I have met some pretty amazing people and I wouldn't change a thing, as cliche as that is. I've learned what I needed to learn from the people that were sent to me to teach me lessons. I really am grateful for all the people currently in my life, and those who have left. 

It's just that sometimes moving on sucks.