not to be obnoxious.

Things are about to get really cliche really fast. But I'm just feeling blessed today. And I've been thinking about everything happening in my life all day and I've come to one conclusion. We are all pretty freaking blessed. Today was day one of my favorite traditional Lake Powell trip.

 I guess there's just something about being out at the lake on a 70 foot long boat with your entire family that makes you feel happy. 

One guarantee of Lake Powell though is a lot of thinking time. And you better believe I did a whole lot of thinking today. 

Life is a tricky thing. I think that I underestimate what it can throw at me sometimes. But one thing I've noticed about myself is that when something bad is going on, I'm ALWAYS thinking about it. No matter what I'm doing, my mind always wanders to the wrong in my life. And honestly, it's sick. That is absolutely not what this life is intended to be. 

Whenever I'm faced with a trial I just can't wait until it blows over and my life can return to 'normal'. But what I don't think I've ever realized is everyone's normal is different and maybe what I think my life needs to return to isn't good for me. 

I'm not even sure where I'm going with this but what I do know is I need to accept where I'm at, wherever that is. I can't wait for my life to return to what it was because then I'm not progressing. And that's what life is about. Taking the experiences I've been dealt and building on them. I can't do that if I'm living in the past. But at the same time, I can't live in the future either, if that makes sense. It's okay to look forward to things, but I can't wish away my time. 

Because if there's one thing I've learned it's that everything is unpredictable. 

And life goes by so dang fast.