wedding.

here's to hoping the three people who read my blog didn't give up on me in my two week absence. things have been CRAZY to say the least. but a good crazy. my oldest brother f i n a l l y got married and it couldn't have been more perfect in my completely unbiased opinion (; 

they got married in the salt lake temple, which is completely gorgeous. I would not mind getting married there one bit. 

Jase and Kristen took approximately 17 years to come out of the temple and it was a little on the cold side but it turned out to be worth the wait! 

it's amazing how happy they both looked. it was for sure motivation to be a good girl so I can get married in the temple one day. 

kinda fun to think that we get to have 5 more weddings..let's give my mom a couple months to recover before we bring that fact to her attention (; 

the reception that night was beautiful. they did all the traditional stuff at this reception, the cutting of the cake and the boquet toss, all the cute stuff. it was a lot of fun! 

the reception in hurricane was last night and oh my gosh it was beautiful. it couldn't have been more perfect. well actually I take that back. if I could change one thing I would have worn a t shirt that said 'yes I'm going to suu, I live on campus, it's fun, I like my roommates, and yeah the snow is gonna suck.' because I went over those exact details approximately 7282628384728386272 times. but at least I had a hot date, eh? 

it was a solid weekend for sure. I'm kinda sad it's over but I'm glad that Kristen is finally officially part of the family! 

beach.

tonight was solid. went to my favorite place ever. I love cedar and I love the beach. 

this was so pointless I guess. but I love college and I love my life and I hope you do too (: 

i should be listening..

so my human development class is an appropriate time to blog, right? yeah I thought so. I had such a good week last week. I can't believe how much I love it here all of the sudden. just when I think things are as good as they could get, I have a really good day at work or I score really well on a quiz I didn't know I had. seriously, I'm so happy and blessed. there were problems I had when I first got here and I just didn't understand how things could go so bad. but looking back, it was actually a blessing that things worked out the way they did. sometimes I forget that Heavenly Father is never gonna leave me hanging and he is gonna make sure everything will work out the in the way that's best for me. 

I had a really awesome run the other day and I ran to the top of this mountain and when I got to the top this was waiting for me. my gram thinks I should send this in to ksl, apparently I can win an iPad (; but seriously, how amazing is this world we live in? I'm in cedar city, Utah and I swear it's the prettiest ever. ah I can't get enough. 

the other day I had the funnest night with an old friend. we just explored cedar a little and talked about old times and current times. and it was the best. 

I also went home this Sunday and I freakin love my family so much. 

if Kaden ever finds out I posted this he will never speak to me again but this makes me laugh so hard so I had to put it somewhere (: anyways though, solid sabbath with the fam damily. 

I guess my point is that if something is hard, wait it out. give it time. Heavenly Father has got this. it'll be okay. 

better and better.

so this is pretty much just me talking about how pretty cedar is and posting mediocre pictures I took on my phone round two. how obnoxious am I? (; no but really LOOK. 

I am so obsessed with the weather here right now. I know that in about a month, if that long it's gonna be freezing and I'm gonna be eating my words but for now I'm in love. 

did you know cedar just has its own tiny lake? this is where I go always. because it's warm water and so calm and beautiful. 

guys college isn't as bad as I made it out to be. I had a really rough start, but I'm about 70 million times better. dare I say I like it? this is what I learned. attitude is absolutely everything. I had it set in my mind that was a huge step, which it was. and I give myself props for being here and trying this, so yay me. but it's DEFINITELY do-able. and it can be hard and I'm sure I'll have some more really tough days when I just wanna go home. but I can do it. 

tonight my suite mates invited me to go to McDonalds with them and I did. I really haven't gotten to know them at all and I feel bad about that. this week I'm gonna make an effort to be their friend. because how fun would it be to be their friend and hangout and have cute roommate movie nights? okay probably that was creepy. 

but anyways. college is good. change is completely necessary and anyone can handle it. and my roommates are gonna be my friends. holler. 

cedar appreciation.

so I personally think I work on the cutest street in cedar and I love my job. tonight we were way slow and my boss doesn't care what I do so I stood outside and watched the sunset for really probably 20 minutes. 

I just work here. so cute. let me draw your attention to some specifics. first of all the classic barber shop swirly thing. I don't know what its called, I just know I love it. second of all the hanging basket of flowers. I am in love. it's hard to see because it was getting dark, but use your imagination. and the lights in the trees make my day. all the buildings are cute and old and I just love it okay. 

also this. taken right from the doorway of my work. how unreal is this? cedars sunsets are always nuts but I was dying tonight. 

I dunno, I've really appreciated this place more the past few days. I don't hate it here anymore. I actually really like it (: 

looking up.

you know that old saying 'its always darkest before the light?' I really feel like I experienced that this week. I really didn't know what I was gonna do at the beginning of this week. moving home and commuting was something I thought about a million times a day. I felt judged and alone and so sad all the time. it was  rough go. then all of the sudden things got better. I owe a big part of it to my brother. I called my mom when day and was crying to her about how awful everything was and how I didn't have any friends here and Jord was with her and could hear what was going on. the next day I get a text from a number I didn't know asking me on a date. come to find out it was one of Jordan's old mission companions that's also at suu going to school. we went and got ice cream and just talked and it felt so good to know I finally have a friend here. it felt good to talk about stuff that wasn't college related and to laugh and not be alone. and I owe that to my brother. 

that was really the start of things looking up around here. that night I was in such a good mood and I went to casino night, a college sponsored party, I didn't really gamble. relatives calm down (; 

me being a freakin stud and winning black jack over and over (; 

look how fun it was though. everyone was dressed up all fancy and it was in a way cool building and it was just a fun atmosphere! seriously such a fun night. 

the next night me and Haylee came home to hurricane for a suu/Dixie combined dance party. 

Kalli is going to Dixie so she came with us and it was so fun to hangout with her! I didn't realize how much I missed her until I saw her. 

we slept in hurricane that night and I was woken up at 9 in the freaking am by my dad to go clean the church for the SECOND WEEK IN A ROW. wtf. but luckily I love my family and how huge it is so it wasn't that big of a deal. 

plus I got to use this huge vacuum so it wasn't all bad, folks. 

that night we came back up to school and went to the first home game of the season! 

it was seriously so fun to go to a football game again. I've missed it! we won, complete blowout, but it was way fun! 

after the game was a huge paint dance and it was absolute POURING but it was so so fun. and dangerous. people go crazy to get to the front of things. lets not be complete savages, people. 

we're looking a little rough, but it was so fun! 

I was home in hurricane today and really I have the best family, absolutely no competition. after dinner today we were all just sitting around talking and it's really baffling how hilarious all my brothers and parents are. I absolutely love it. also we took family pictures last weekend because we were all home for the first time in forever. look how precious. 

these ones were my favorites and they're mostly just the ones we were being silly in. but that's just how we are and it's my favorite. also these are crappy quality because I had to take a picture of a picture. sorry about it. 

alright I'll be done now. sorry about the marathon post. here's to another good week!