reality check.

Seriously. I had this conversation with a friend a few months ago and it's stuck with me ever since. This kid is an example of how a real man should be. He never makes a decision without thinking about how it's gonna affect his future, and if it's sketchy in the slightest, he doesn't do it. 

This just goes to show that not all boys are the same. In highschool, there were about a million and a half jerks that didn't care about respecting girls or themselves or anything. But then there are still some like these. These are the kind of guys I wanna spend my time with. The guys that realize there is life after highschool, and it's not all about being happy right in the moment, and not caring what comes after. 

I dunno. I guess it's just important for me to always remember that there is such a thing as a good guy. They're not a myth, believe it or not.

The other thing I have to remember, especially with me moving out in a few days, is that to attract a good guy, I have to be a good girl. I think that's the most important thing for me to remember at this point in my life, and I'm gonna do my best to live up to the things my parents have taught me, even when it's hard. 

so much change.

This past week and a half have been CRAZY. A good, weird, scary, kinda exciting kind of crazy. 

I got a job in cedar at a little restaurant called a taste of Hawaii as a waitress. Which means I turned in my two weeks and durangos and Numyz. 

I'll be honest, I loved working at the good ole durang-a-bangs. It was seriously so fun (for the most part) and I had some good times and laughs there. I'm definitely glad for a change, but I'm gonna miss the place!

My first day at my new job was yesterday and so far so good! I love being a server, and didn't do too bad in tips! The girl I worked with was way chill, and it was a solid first day. Can't wait to work more!

I'm at a weird stage in my life. Huge changes are right there, and I don't know if I'm ready for them. I move out this Wednesday, and I'm scared to death. I'm gonna miss my family, especially Kaden. Even though I'm only gonna be in cedar, it's gonna be tough. 

Overall though, this summer had been such a good one. I had a ton of fun, and learned a lot along the way. 

It's crazy how stuff changes after graduation, even in just a few months. But I learned that the only people I need in life are the ones who stuck around. And I learned that no matter what happens, if someone is supposed to be in your life, it'll work out and they will be. 

Today has been a good one. Me and my mom came up north for my soon to be sisters bridal shower (: it was a ton of fun! Actually all of the wedding stuff has been a lot of fun, it's all really new to me. I got this cute note and I couldn't be more excited. 

 

Kristen already feels like family, but it's exciting that it's finally gonna be official! 

Anyways, after the bridal shower, me and my mom went shopping for dorm stuff as well as clothes! Tonight we went to the Hale theater and saw my all time favorite, Tarzan.

I didn't know what to expect, but I'll admit I had high expectations because Tarzan has always been my movie. And it did not disappoint. It was all amazing. The singers were all crazy talented, the set was awesome, and it was completely entertaining. After the show we went to brio and had dessert. Overall a successful day 👌 my mamma is gonna be the person I miss the most when I move, hands down. I get teary just thinking about it! She's such an amazing mom and it's been so fun to spend the weekend with her!

I said goodbye to Shelby a couple nights ago, she's going to school in Logan. It was WEIRD. The whole college situation is wack in my opinion, I'll never know where the time went. I guess this is it for now, but I'm sure there will be plenty of interesting stories for me to share once I move out (:

sunrise.

Every other day I like to do this thing called wake up before noon. I go to crossfit at 6 in the am and it usually sucks but this happened today: 

Seriously I don't know if I was just on a high from the workout, but I'm pretty sure this is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. 

Heavenly Father sure knows what he's doing (:

update.

Does it count for anything if I know I'm a bad blogger? I'm still trying to work it so you don't hear from me either 7 times a day or once a month. Obviously I haven't quite mastered it yet. 

A few things happened since I last blogged. First of all, Bryce left on his mission. 

WHAT. 

I don't know why, but this is just what I think. Bryce isn't allowed to leave hurricane. He's just like a fixture here, someone you can always call to hangout or do something crazy. But apparently someone didn't clue him in because he went to Africa for two years. He really is gonna be the best missionary ever, but I'm gonna miss that kid. Before he left I got to hangout with him quite a bit. We went on a night hike up three falls and the stars were BEAUTIFUL. If you ever wanna feel like you're just a little baby dot, part of something way bigger than I can even comprehend, I recommend hiking at night. We also watched the scariest movie I've ever seen, but I'm recovering. 

He came over to say goodbye the day before he got set apart and it was weird. Because we all just talked like we always do but then he hugged us and said see ya in two and now Africa. So okay. 

Another thing that happened was I took Brandon and Derek paddleboarding and we convinced my mom to come along after a while too (: the only downside is we accidentally went during a hurricane. It happens. But once the wind died down a bit and we figured out we have to stay closer to shore, it was really fun. 

Haha my cute paddlin' buddy (: 

Here's another thing that happened. I found a recipe on Pinterest and me and b and d made it and it actually was really fun and good! 

This is the recipe, seriously give it a try. Super easy and yummy. Here's a helpful hint even: we didn't have a pan so we just made the pan shape out of tin foil and put it on cardboard. I was paranoid the whole time that the cardboard was gonna light on fire so I pulled it out and put it on a pan. But I accidentally ripped the cookie in half. My bad. Luckily it was mendable so nobody had to know, but I do recommend having the right pan. 

I don't remember if I mentioned this already, but I got a job in cedar! After filling out about a million applications, I got one! My personal favorite part of the job hunting experience was when the manager at one of the places I applied asked how old I was and I completely froze. Aren't I charming? 

So that's pretty much what's been going on in my life for the past little while. Here's one more thing that happened. I was at work at durangos, just helping customers, minding my own business. One guy came through and it came time for me to roll his burrito. I did so, and he told me how what I did was way past a job, I had a talent for rolling burritos. Great. I didn't really know how to reply so I just said "yeah, I've definitely rolled my fair share of burritos." Really that's all I said. This guy absolutely ERUPTED and just stared right into my eyes and laughed for like 10 minutes. It was so awkward. I'm not even funny. Weirdo. 

Anyways, I'll try to post more often so I don't have to write novel posts every time. 

No promises though. 

happiness is.

Emotions are such a weird concept to me. Like something happens and we just feel good inside and it's called happiness. Like what. It's also crazy to me that different things make different people happy. 

Everyone has their own definition of happy. 

This is my definition. 

Happiness is: 

-listening to Christmas music in July, just because you want to. 

-realizing your fly is down BEFORE you leave the house. 

-when your dad mutes the tv every night when you get home from work just to ask how it went. 

-rubbing your eyes at the end of the night, even if you still have make up on. 

-coming home to find your brother has eaten a big handful of trail mix and left all the m&m's on the counter up for grabs. 

-absolutely nailing a song on the piano, even if you haven't played for a while. 

-finding a pink otter pop in the mix of orange and green ones nobody wanted. 

-climbing out your bedroom window at night to read on the roof. 

-knowing the person you're talking to won't judge anything you say.

-completing a task and feeling like you did a good job. 

There are a million and a half things that make me happy everyday. Focus on those things, because nothing else matters. 

 

nerd.

So this is gonna be the most pointless post yet. I wouldn't blame ya if you didn't read past this point, because I probably wouldn't and that's saying something because this is my blog. 

But today was a big day for me. Because of the following: 

About a week ago I ordered something online. My mother asked what I ordered and I told her a t shirt and she asked how much. I told her twenty dollars and she asked me to please tell her I didn't spend twenty dollars on a t shirt BUT I DID. And I LIKED it. 

It came. The t shirt came and I am so in love. 

                   There she is :') 

Basically I'm a huge nerd that really doesn't do much more than google mayday parade lyrics and drive around the lake blasting any and every mayday parade song ever created while singing at the top of my lungs. You could say it's my thing. 

But I just can't help it, best lyric award goes to mayday parade. 

If this interests any of my like two blog readers (hey mom) which I'm sure it doesn't, then here's a list of my favorite songs by them. Hahaha it's baffling how stupid this post is turning out to be. 

Anyways: 

-Without the bitter the sweet isn't as sweet. 

-You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground, I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds. (Oh yeah, they're also known for their ridiculously long song titles that don't really have anything to do with the songs) 

-Miserable at best (can't beat the classics) 

-I'd hate to be you when people find out what this song is really about 

-Your song (has to be acoustic) 

-the last something that meant anything 

-terrible things (listen to the words and cry) 

-Stay

Okay, I really do apologize about this post. I think I got most of my burning desire to blog about mayday since I got a blog out of my system. 

Have a lovely day (: 

weekend.

This weekend was most definitely a good one. One I've been dreading/looking forward to for a while, if that makes any sense. 

Saturday was one of my best friends farewell parties. Bryce was called to serve in a patch of little islands off the coast of Africa. Crazy I know. 

Me and these babes made Bryce this cute cake (:

It was fun being at his house because Bryce is pretty much friends with everyone, so there were a bunch of people there that I haven't seen since we graduated a couple months ago. There were also some people that graduated a year ago that were there and it was fun to catch up with them. 

           Look, he loved his cake (: 

His actual farewell talk was today, and it was the best one I've heard in a while. He talked about gratitude but I loved it because he made it so personal. It really made me realize how much I have to be grateful for every single day and that if I'm not happy then I'm doing something wrong because the Lord has given us everything we need and more to be happy in this life. Ah man. I'm gonna miss that kid a lot. But I know he's doing the right thing, and he is gonna be beyond amazing out there. 

Also, today was this kids 18th bday (:

Really I don't even know what I would do without Austin right now. He really was there for me at a crucial point and I can't thank him enough for that. He is really one of the funniest people I know and my best friend. I don't even know what I'm gonna do at college without him. But anyways, happy birthday Austin, I'm glad I got to spend some of it with you!

And last but not least. Kaden is home!!

I worked Saturday day shift at durangos and at about 3 he came rolling in and I was so happy to see him I really could have cried haha. Turns out a week is a long time! We gotta hangout tonight and you better believe that some Cheetah Girls, Hannah Montana, midnight Alberto's runs and hilarious moments were all apart of that (: so glad he's home! 

Oh by the way I get to cross another item off my unofficial summer bucket list! Saturday night me and Haylee got together with Kalli and Andy and Pat who I haven't seen in forever and went ice blocking! Tons of fun, just a little painful (; also illegal, turns out. Haha who knew going down the golf course hills at a high speed at midnight on a block of ice wasn't encouraged?!

Anyways it's been quite the weekend, so glad I got to spend it with people I love!