I actually have things to say.

guys so much has happened and yay for most of it being good! 

lets go ahead and get the bad out of the way. I completely shattered my phone and I absolutely cried. mostly I'm just telling you this because if there's a lot more typos in this than usual, that's why. I can't see what I'm typing in some places. my sincerest. 

on with the good. I got reminded a week ago today that Heavenly Father cares about me. woo. unfortunately that's one of those things I forget a lot and need constant reminding but He loves me enough to give me that. I've really been stressing lately. I feel like there's more I need to do and I just couldn't figure out what. I considerd a mission for a while but that just has never felt right for me. but I was really considering it because I've just been feeling like I need to GO. so this next part is so dumb but go with me here. I was watching soul surfer (all time fav movie) last Tuesday and it hit me. so this time next year, if things continue to go as planned, I will be attending the University of Hawaii. I really feel like this is what I need to do. I don't know what it is, and it may seem silly because I can't explain it but I'm gonna give it a try. I've had a couple meetings with the global engagement center and my academic advisor and things are going well so far so here's to hoping this works out. 

other way cool stuff. my best friend got his mission call to Apea, Samoa. let's pretend like I spelled that right, yeah? I just need to go a little further so you realize how big of a deal this is. his mom is full Samoan and his dad is white, so Keanu doesn't look like it, but he is definitely Samoan. and it's always been a really big deal for him. he spends a lot of time at his grandmas house, learning Samoan. he was raised with a lot of the traditions and he respects them. he's even taught me a little, and I'll pretend like I have anything to show for those lessons (; anyways though,, he would always tell me about people he would hear being called to Samoa and he was SO jealous. so when he opened that call and read those words, my first thought was that he was messin with everyone, which is 100 percent typical for him. but I just got chills and he was all choked up and I knew he wasn't kidding and it was so amazing. he is gonna be the best missionary in the world and I'm so so proud of him. 

hahaha I just feel like this is proof that he really is Samoan. check out his leis. and the only reason I have any is because of his family. it's a thing apparently. 

alright other things. last week was suu's homecoming week and being faithful freshmen, we attended the majority of the activities. a lot of them were a bust, but Friday was SO fun. 

hellogoodbye came and performed live and this was their guitarist and we loved him. so there's that. there's also this little tradition suu has called true t-bird night. the idea is that everyone goes down to this big statue of a horse and at midnight everyone kisses someone and then you're a true t-bird. we decided we would go because that is a people watchers heaven. it had recently been brought to my attention that my dad reads this blog so I'm just gonna go ahead and leave this story at that (; but it was a fun night and I'll be done with this story! haha 

speaking of my dad, today is his birthday but we did his celebration on Sunday because I was home. 

I don't think my dad realizes how much I look up to him. especially now that I've moved out. being in cedar has made me realize that money doesn't make itself and he has always provided for my family. and I love him for being the crazy hard worker that he is. really there's not a minute when my dad isn't doing something that is going to benefit me and my brothers. I love that he is so funny (although not quite as funny as he thinks he is) (; and always down for a good chat. I love you dad (: 

hikes and stuff.

 you know how there's those people who live for hiking and then there's those people that are like why. yeah I definitely fall under the why category. but a few days ago I started thinking about going on a hike. and I just latched so hard onto the idea. and I was going hiking no matter what, dangit. I roped Haylee into going with me, mostly I think she was just worried about me because I was going crazy because who even hikes. but it was BEAUTIFUL and probably made it into my top 5 favorite days at college so far. lucky for you I took one million pictures because that's how I roll, yo. 

leaves are changing here and it's fall? who even knew such a season existed? not me. 

probably my favorite part of the hike. to get to one of the falls you have to walk through the water in the narrow little rock thing. it was freezing and the best. 

I guess what I'm trying to say is I get why people like hiking. because apparently I Iike hiking. 

other stuff that's happening to me is I'm being a super senior. we went to hurricane last night for their homecoming game, and I spent about 30 minutes in suu's bookstore picking out an suu sweatshirt to wear to the game so people knew that I was actually doing something with my life. combat the super seniorness of the whole experience. all that led to was one million people asking me about school, which is the worst. but you do what you gotta do, ya know? 

it was actually super fun because tons of people we graduated with were there. so we just repped the super senior section and it was all good (:

it was all a good start to the weekend (: 

wedding.

here's to hoping the three people who read my blog didn't give up on me in my two week absence. things have been CRAZY to say the least. but a good crazy. my oldest brother f i n a l l y got married and it couldn't have been more perfect in my completely unbiased opinion (; 

they got married in the salt lake temple, which is completely gorgeous. I would not mind getting married there one bit. 

Jase and Kristen took approximately 17 years to come out of the temple and it was a little on the cold side but it turned out to be worth the wait! 

it's amazing how happy they both looked. it was for sure motivation to be a good girl so I can get married in the temple one day. 

kinda fun to think that we get to have 5 more weddings..let's give my mom a couple months to recover before we bring that fact to her attention (; 

the reception that night was beautiful. they did all the traditional stuff at this reception, the cutting of the cake and the boquet toss, all the cute stuff. it was a lot of fun! 

the reception in hurricane was last night and oh my gosh it was beautiful. it couldn't have been more perfect. well actually I take that back. if I could change one thing I would have worn a t shirt that said 'yes I'm going to suu, I live on campus, it's fun, I like my roommates, and yeah the snow is gonna suck.' because I went over those exact details approximately 7282628384728386272 times. but at least I had a hot date, eh? 

it was a solid weekend for sure. I'm kinda sad it's over but I'm glad that Kristen is finally officially part of the family! 

beach.

tonight was solid. went to my favorite place ever. I love cedar and I love the beach. 

this was so pointless I guess. but I love college and I love my life and I hope you do too (: 

i should be listening..

so my human development class is an appropriate time to blog, right? yeah I thought so. I had such a good week last week. I can't believe how much I love it here all of the sudden. just when I think things are as good as they could get, I have a really good day at work or I score really well on a quiz I didn't know I had. seriously, I'm so happy and blessed. there were problems I had when I first got here and I just didn't understand how things could go so bad. but looking back, it was actually a blessing that things worked out the way they did. sometimes I forget that Heavenly Father is never gonna leave me hanging and he is gonna make sure everything will work out the in the way that's best for me. 

I had a really awesome run the other day and I ran to the top of this mountain and when I got to the top this was waiting for me. my gram thinks I should send this in to ksl, apparently I can win an iPad (; but seriously, how amazing is this world we live in? I'm in cedar city, Utah and I swear it's the prettiest ever. ah I can't get enough. 

the other day I had the funnest night with an old friend. we just explored cedar a little and talked about old times and current times. and it was the best. 

I also went home this Sunday and I freakin love my family so much. 

if Kaden ever finds out I posted this he will never speak to me again but this makes me laugh so hard so I had to put it somewhere (: anyways though, solid sabbath with the fam damily. 

I guess my point is that if something is hard, wait it out. give it time. Heavenly Father has got this. it'll be okay. 

better and better.

so this is pretty much just me talking about how pretty cedar is and posting mediocre pictures I took on my phone round two. how obnoxious am I? (; no but really LOOK. 

I am so obsessed with the weather here right now. I know that in about a month, if that long it's gonna be freezing and I'm gonna be eating my words but for now I'm in love. 

did you know cedar just has its own tiny lake? this is where I go always. because it's warm water and so calm and beautiful. 

guys college isn't as bad as I made it out to be. I had a really rough start, but I'm about 70 million times better. dare I say I like it? this is what I learned. attitude is absolutely everything. I had it set in my mind that was a huge step, which it was. and I give myself props for being here and trying this, so yay me. but it's DEFINITELY do-able. and it can be hard and I'm sure I'll have some more really tough days when I just wanna go home. but I can do it. 

tonight my suite mates invited me to go to McDonalds with them and I did. I really haven't gotten to know them at all and I feel bad about that. this week I'm gonna make an effort to be their friend. because how fun would it be to be their friend and hangout and have cute roommate movie nights? okay probably that was creepy. 

but anyways. college is good. change is completely necessary and anyone can handle it. and my roommates are gonna be my friends. holler. 

cedar appreciation.

so I personally think I work on the cutest street in cedar and I love my job. tonight we were way slow and my boss doesn't care what I do so I stood outside and watched the sunset for really probably 20 minutes. 

I just work here. so cute. let me draw your attention to some specifics. first of all the classic barber shop swirly thing. I don't know what its called, I just know I love it. second of all the hanging basket of flowers. I am in love. it's hard to see because it was getting dark, but use your imagination. and the lights in the trees make my day. all the buildings are cute and old and I just love it okay. 

also this. taken right from the doorway of my work. how unreal is this? cedars sunsets are always nuts but I was dying tonight. 

I dunno, I've really appreciated this place more the past few days. I don't hate it here anymore. I actually really like it (: